gone, maybe forever

ok so yes, it has come to it now. He has left me here all alone, he has gone so bloody far away. 

why did he have to go? why was it so necessary for him to leave? Ok yeah, it was necessary but not this way. i deserved a good bye, a proper one. now I am supposed to go on waiting till at least December, maybe when he comes he pays me a visit. i hope he does. i love him, no one else, just him. wherever he is at this moment he has taken my heart with him. 

i love him, i love him just so much. why couldn't life go a little easy on me? why did it have to take away the one person i loved the most? 

i cant let fate do that to me, i don't want god to write my story, i want to be the author. i cant let these twists and turns stop me from getting to him, he is life and i need my life.

i don't care how long i have to wait for i will, i will wait for him to come to me. i will make it happen, i HAVE  to or else i will regret it all my life. or else my scars would mean nothing at all. or else living wouldn't be worth it...