I remember

I remember that day. I remember it all too clearly, you left. You left me, you left my life and then finally you broke me. Deprived me of sleep for days, made me cry every night. I got lost. I have been lost ever since. I am trying so hard to forget you, to find myself but I fail daily. I remember how I howled that day, I remember how I picked up that blade. I remember the red dripped from my arm. I remember the unwanted feeling, I remember the moist cheeks, I remember wanting to die. I remember it all too clearly.