2 hours to go

After two hours the person I love the most will leave, he will be on the plane, ready to leave the country.. ready to leave the continent and go far far away

Is there anything I can do to stop him?

NO

Did I have that one last chance to say good bye?

NO

Will I miss him?

Like crazy

Do I love him?

Maybe more than i love my family.

Its finally time and I'm trying hard not to cry, I always thought he and I would stick together through it all, could I be anymore wrong? I know its over, and even 6 months after our break up it is hard for me to digest the fact that the person I love is leaving me behind and going far far away.

FIRST

Well, as the title depicts I am confused. I cant make decisions, its really stupid. 

its not only about decisions, when it comes to life I have no clue as to what I am doing. yes, I know none of us have any kind of clue and we all are trying to just figure life out but I feel extreme. I am happy, yet I am confused about how i actually do feel. 

there are moments in my life when I am so happy that I scream with joy, then again there are some moments when I just want to give up, when I just want to die. 

What I feel, its kind of in-explainable, confusing.. a little too extra even for my cup of tea.

Hopefully during this confusing journey of mine I get my head in the game and figure it all out.